I don't know what's up with me all of a sudden, but I am feeling oh-so-efficient and productive these days. It's almost freaky. I wake up in the morning, roll toward my laptop (this constitutes my commute to the office) and start plugging away with a smile on my face. About eight hours later, I find myself wondering, "Where did the day go, and why haven't I eaten?"
Okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration. I usually have toast and tea about two hours in when my tummy starts rumbling. But THAT'S IT. Which is totally weird because usually you can't keep me out of the kitchen. Snack on this, snack on that, freshen my glass of whatever I happen to be sipping to wash it all down....
But the point is not my lack of sustenance (which is awkward) or the fact that I am actually losing weight (which I am), but the reality that I'm suddenly capable of an elevated level of focus that's really working out for me. I'm accomplishing things! New endeavors, yes, but also things that I've put off for a while and needed to pick back up.
For the last few months, I've just been slogging through task after task, working toward deadlines and taking care of the minutiae, but it all seemed piecewise and disconnected. Suddenly, the big picture, the future, a sense of what is ahead has crystalized in front of me. I feel a sense of direction that I've been looking for for a while now. I haven't felt lost, exactly. For a long time I've known more or less where I'm headed. Perhaps it's akin to steering a ship into the darkness toward a distant shoreline. Eventually the sun comes up one day and you can see mountains on the horizon. You still have a ways to sail, but, hurrah!
I don't know what has changed, or where this new mindset is coming from but I have the feeling that everything that has been up in the air for so long is finally starting to come together. I hope I can stay In The Zone a while longer!